i like to walk softly.
i like to be invisible.
i like silence.
i do not write about all, there is always the hidden, that that will not surface, the meta of the meta, and then there is me… by any other name.
i am at present writing schemata a story that has had me in its grips for over two years. i have started draft after draft, i reworked the drafts, i have outlined it time and again, and started again with another blank page. the story is so clear in my mind, and yet i kept on not finding its thread… that was until february 8, 2007. it took a few days to realize what it was that happened on that night and day in geneva.
when i returned to berne from geneva after the lift conference in february 2007, there was an essay that i had started long ago and that i was finally ready to finish. i am aware of the possibility of this essay being misunderstood in the absence of the context of my life as a whole, and it is in this awareness that i do publish it while informing that this was written from both a place of deep respect and appreciation for those named in the essay with all sincerity.
i have begun writing Theoretical Man in an exploratory way of writing and that includes keeping notes in uncondition. i have often looked for validation for my own ways of writing and thinking among other writers, especially those alive and breathing, and the works of those that are long dead and whose voice reaches me through their words in those works. on occasions i also read about a third person’s view of a writer and try to conjecture from that what it is that makes some of us write and others not. i am not so sure that the answer matters much and as time go by, it matters less and less.
Sporadically I publish here some of the dialogues between these two very fictional characters. It is part of my experimentation with writing dialogue itself and the exploration of old ideas in my context.
This you might want to know:
- Writing here is something that I do for myself.
- Some members of my family do read this, some don’t.
- Some of my friends also read this, others don’t.
- I also do not read other people’s writing all the time.
- I get email, I read it. I do not always answer it. It does not mean anything other than what you make it mean if I answer email immediately or not at all.
- I am both very active and prone to seclusion. There are times when I do not post.
- The readers of this blog seem to be both very smart and polite from the feedback that I get.
Thank you.
Adapted from David’s Rules of Engagement.
July 2007
