economics of the hidden

i like to walk softly.

i like to be invisible.

i like silence.

i do not write about all. there is always the hidden, there is that that will not surface. there is the meta of the meta, and then there is me… by any other name.

i was writing schemata for a few years. it is a story that has had me in its grips over those years. i have started draft after draft. i reworked the drafts. i have outlined the story time and again. started it again with another blank page. the story is so clear in my mind. i kept on not finding its thread… that was until february 8, 2007. it took a few days to realize what it was that happened on that night and day in geneva. i found schemata’s thread again, or i thought that i had found it again; i wrote some more and then it stalled again. as 2008 came to a close i took myself on a long walk, and made a few decisions.

schemata now lies dormant – a sleeping beauty – it needed some rest.

i have begun writing Theoretical Man in an exploratory way that includes keeping notes in uncondition. i have often looked for validation for my own ways of writing and thinking among other writers, especially those alive and breathing. the works of those that are long dead and whose voice reaches me through their words in those works are another source of nurtrance. on occasions, i read about a third person’s view of a writer and try to conjecture from that what it is that makes some of us write, want to write, need to write, and others not. i am not so sure that the answer matters much, and as time go by, it matters less and less.

as of the fourth quarter of 2008, writing and researching Theoretical Man has taken me back to academia.

Achilles and Tortoise

Sporadically I publish here some of the dialogues between these two very fictional characters. It is part of my experimentation with writing dialogue itself,  and the exploration of old ideas in my context.

updated: February 2009