Just got back in from seeing the movie Factotum at the Kellerkino. Factotum is based on the novel with the same title written by Charles Bukowski. Matt Dillon does a great job of playing Hank Chinaski, if for nothing else other than the fact that to me he speaks right into my heart. I was on the edge of my seat all the time as though this was my story and my life.
One of the many scenes that touched home with me was when Henry (Hank) goes home to his parents needing a place to sleep and his father ends up throwing him out of the house.
Just go see the film, but only if you can deal with what a beat writer can throw at you.
If you’re going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don’t even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery — isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you’ll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you’re going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It’s the only good fight there is.
Charles Bukowski (Factotum)